"Perhaps one could never find sense in life without first experiencing its absurdity." (Havel)
Perhaps, you have felt 'this way' for some time and/or for so long that you cannot remember what it was like to be free from the vice grip of mental weight and stress.
Perhaps, all was good and you were feeling strong and confident - then something happened and everything changed.
The process begins with identifying and exploring The Four Quads (areas) of your life that you consider most significant to personal growth and wellbeing. For example: Family. Relationships. Financial Security. Mental Health. Physical Health. Faith. Career. Music. Art. Hobbies. Travel.
The process is a journey toward equilibrium (balance and homeostasis) and to lift the emotional anchors intensifying feelings of disconnection and despair.